OK, so I'm moving to my 9th different city of the past two and half years and am going through the usual roller coaster ride. You know the typical stuff excitement, anxiety, and denial, all while pondering if I will have ever have a stable life. Doubtful about the last one, but content because the truth is right now I wouldn't have it any other way.
I love my life and all the opportunities I've been given even if it means I must give up the stabilities and comforts of a normal steady life.
In fact the biggest twinge of fear that I've had about moving to Louisville has been that all the woman here will be fat and that in a torrid moment of loneliness I'll become a bloated baby's daddy. For all the spiritual development I've worked on I guess a part of me is still a just horny shallow guy.
I know this is petty and possibly unfair to the fine woman of Louisville but when I spoke with a friend of mine who lived in Louisville for a year all he would say to me about it is "if it's not fried its not food."
I'm sure my old mentor Ed Chandler would say it sounds like I'm really afraid of becoming overweight myself. He'd probably be right. I randomly go through these fitness spasms where I do everything I can to become healthy. Working out, eating right, body shaving, and giving up the meat and sugars are the sure signs of my kamikaze health cycle. I never really let myself go to far in the other extreme, but I just don't consistently do all the things I should.
DANGNABIT there it is again, a lack of consistency in my life. I wonder if I did develop these helpful consistent habits in my personal life if my outside life will stabilize too??? Hmmm I hope not but that's a blog for another day.
Before I send off though I want to give a shout out to my girl Kelli and all the VA Taoist (http://www.taopractice.org/). Thanks for reminding me who and what I'm all about.
Over & Out!!!!
4 comments:
"in a torrid moment of loneliness I'll become a bloated baby's daddy. "
Don't worry buddy. I happen to know that Louisville is home to one of the largest gay nightclubs in the South. Not that you're gay, but at least you've got other options than being a baby daddy.
Thanks, it's good to know I have options.
So I've been here for a few days now and my fears have been laid to rest! KY, has some FINE ladies. I've never been so glad to be wrong.
Brent- You make me proud. Glad to you your fears did not come to be true. Sounds like Louisville isn't so bad after all. Take care and good luck in the campaign.
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